Monday, August 20 x 1:23 AM

this is me trying not to care.

a part of me still feels guilt, but i try to remember that he did me wrong, and not the other way around.

i know i said that whatever feelings i had were for a fictional person, but those feelings haven't completely left me. even if they are for a fictional person.

i don't know why anyone would do this to me. it makes me so jaded. is there anyone, anyone out there who won't just try to get into my pants? or have me for the sake of having me?

maybe someday, i'll know and understand why he did what he did, or how he could look me in the eye and lie to me so consistently.

i'm so sick and tired of people breaking my trust. i'm so sick and tired of people taking advantage of the fact that i'm nice and sweet and naive and innocent and trusting.

i just want to live my life quietly and hope that someday, i will meet a person who will love me. and really love me---all of me, flaws and all.