Wednesday, May 16 x 10:57 PM

because today is such a fun, fun day.

i want to scream.

i want to cry. oh wait, i did. twice, even. i'm sorry philip. hahaha.

i want to drink. oh wait, i did. two red horses and one and a half glasses of margaritas. on a weekday. thanks wesh, janelle, beau, jed and eddie.

i want to get away. oh wait, that's still in october, and i have yet to pay for it. hahahaha.

i had a chili's dinner in gb1 with the above-mentioned. all i know is i wanted to get wasted, and i'm not exactly wasted, but i do have alcohol in my system so i'm happy. and dinner was really fun (i'm not exactly sure if it was my shallow humor or the margaritas). somewhat, at least.

hi to you, cutie from ____________. yes, i did cry today, but when you stuck your tongue out at me, it was sooo grade school but i smiled. :) and in the midst of all the emotional chaos, that smile really did brighten up my day. so did our little conversations after. it's really stupid and shallow, but i'm really looking forward to seeing you in the next couple of weeks. :)

alcohol is <3.

someday, i'll get it right. someday, everything will fall into place. i hope that's someday soon, but in the meanwhile, let me find my happiness in the little things.