Tuesday, October 17 x 12:25 AM

dear friends,

i'm sorry for being so out of touch. i hope you understand. for the longest time, i've relied on all of you to keep my spirits up. i'm going through something right now, and i can't really share it with anyone.

i'm sorry if i don't laugh as much, or talk as much. i'm sorry if i'm not myself. this is something i have to go through alone, and it's really hard for me to pretend nothing's wrong when i'm around other people. it's even harder to face all of you and have to tell you what i'm going through. i'd love to put on a happy face for everyone, but the best i can do is grit my teeth and lie and say that i'm ok. you guys know i'm a really bad liar.

so i'm stating it here and now, i'm going through some personal problems. i hope you understand if i don't feel like talking about it, or if i'd rather not be asked about it.

thank you for your concern, and thank you for being there for me even when i don't deserve your support. i'm sorry for being a bad friend and i'm sorry for not replying to your messages. i may not be opening up to anyone, but i am drawing strength from you guys, knowing that once i get through this.. whatever it is, you'll all be there for me. at least, i hope you will be.